Its broken

Ok, so my desktop program is broken. It has been showing cloudless days for the past 2 weeks including today. Now us in Cape Town all know its anything but a cloudless day, so its broken!

Its....

The-end-of-the-week-and-beginning-of-long-weekend-BABY!!!!!!!!

I cant wait for this day to be over. Its another long weekend, and even though its disruptive in the work place, and it cuts into my time to make money, I am very happy it is here. Its been a stressful April for me, and this long weekend with the rainy weather is exactly what I need. I will be flopped on my couch, hopefully with some DVD's and Tristan, Lucca, Leche, Khensu and Tefnut under the duvet....

Bring it on!!!

What a nice start to the day....

Well its the end of April, My mother has just been dismissed from her job after 21 years, and after a armed robbery, where she was held at gun point, for gross misconduct. I am about to go into a meeting with one of our directors for some idiot who claims I never sent him a mail, which I sent, and I am in the mood to tell them all to shove their job up their tight asses.....

I am done!!!

The Month of April

This month has been so weird in terms of work. Because of all the public holidays and the voting hype and the work not happening, I feel so lost. I feel like I am battling to work and to get going. I hate work at the moment, and want to be somewhere else. Maybe an island, maybe I want to be on the "Lost" island. Flying through time from once day to the next. But without the brain hemorrhage. Yes I want to be on the Lost island.

My two boys

They love each other so much. This is how they sleep.

An email reply to a newspaper article

'To the Previously Disadvantaged'

We are sorry that our ancestors were intelligent, advanced and
daring enough to explore the wild oceans to discover new countries
and develop them.

We are sorry that those who came before us took you out of the
bush and taught you that there was more to life than beating drums,
killing each other and chasing animals with sticks and stones.

We are sorry that they planned, funded and developed roads,
towns, mines, factories, airports and harbours, all of which you now
claim to be your long deprived inheritance giving you every right to
change and rename these at your discretion.

We are sorry that our parents taught us the value of small but
strong families, to not breed like rabbits and end up as underfed,
diseased, illiterate shack dwellers living in poverty.

We are sorry that when the evil apartheid government provided
you with schools, you decided they'd look better without windows
or in piles of ashes.

We happily gave up those bad days of getting spanked in our all
white Schools for doing something wrong, and much prefer these
days of freedom where problems can be resolved with knives and guns.

We are sorry that it is hard to shake off the bitterness of the
past when you keep on raping, torturing and killing our friends and
family members, and then hide behind the fence of 'human rights'
with smiles on your faces.

We are sorry that we do not trust the government... We have no
reason to be so suspicious because none of these poor "hard working
intellectuals" have ever been involved in any form of "corruption or
irregularities".

We are sorry that we do not trust the police force and, even
though they have openly admitted that they have lost the war against crime
and criminals, we should not be negative and just ignore their
corruption and carry on hoping for the best.

We are sorry that it is more important to you to have players of
colour in our national teams than winning games and promoting
patriotism.

We know that sponsorship doesn't depend on a team's success.

We are sorry that our border posts have been flung open and now
left you competing for jobs against illegal immigrants from our
beautiful neighbouring countries.

All of them countries that have grown into economic powerhouses
after kicking out the 'settlers'.

We are sorry that we don't believe in witchcraft, beet root and
garlic cures, urinating on street corners, virginity testing, slaughtering
of bulls in our back yards, trading women for cattle and other
barbaric practices.

Maybe we just grew up differently.

We are sorry that your medical care, water supplies, roads,
railways and electricity supplies are going down the toilet because
skilled people who could have planned for and resolved these issues
had to be thrown away because they were of the wrong ethnic
background and now have to work in foreign countries where their
skills are highly appreciated.

We are so sorry that we'd like this country to fulfil its potential so
we can once again be proud South Africans.

The Previously Advantaged'

PS In the old regime... we had lights and water

My state of mind

I am in such a foul mood today. I woke up and I suspect it was watching that cheap second rate news channel (e News) that put me in the mood. Seeing how the ANC is just gaining votes again and taking over again. Hearing how Jacob Zooma is saying that the reason they won is because they went out to the people with their policies and not with attacks on the opposition party and leaders. A mistake that Godzilla made over and over again.

This just put me in such a mood that I screamed at my hair in the mirror, and took it upon myself once again to discipline a gentlemen that just drove through a red light. He heard me hoot and saw me swear and scream so he stopped. I was ready to take him on and rolled down my window. he very calmly asked me if I had seen the colour of the light from his side.... I nearly died and said no I am sorry I did not see it. he gave me one look and said: " have a better day", smiled and drove off.

I started the self loathing. I am turning into this bitter, horrible person that tries to correct everybody all the time and I hate it. And I don't think any of my friends qualify to give me advise or raise their opinions here.....

I just need to relax and find a peaceful place. And I have to do something about work.

Die Swart Gevaar

Well, it looks like the "swart gevaar" (the black danger) is taking its toll again. No matter how much crap these people cause, how little they do for their people, how badly they run the country, how much they steal from the nation, their sheep will follow them into the depths of hell. Once again the ANC is getting the majority of votes from the stupid masses mainly due to blind (stupid) loyalty. The cant think far enough to realise that they have been voting for the same monkeys for the past 15 years, and things have only gotten worse for them. Still they vote for them again. If you manage to coax one down form a tree and are able to communicate withe them, they will tell you they are voting for the ANC because its their party, and they will always vote for them.

Lord have mercy on our nation,

Lead the dumb into the fire,

and help the small few with brains

to get the country back....

My new toy

Hardly seems fair does it?

Tristan's new toy

Sleeping baby

My oldest sleeping in his hands. He is so cute.

Its the voting thing again

So voting day is upon us (tomorrow) and I am still not 100% sure what to vote. This year's election is the most anticipated in our countries history, even more so than the 1994 one. I spoke to some friends yesterday, and one of them said he had a conversation with his maid, who told him she is going to vote ANC, because that is her party. She did however express complete dissatisfaction with the government, who had promised her a house and had not delivered since 1994. She did not like the government at all, but when made aware of the fact that she is voting for the party that is promising all of this and still not delivering, her rely was, yes, but they are my party, and I will still vote for them.

This is the level of stupidity we have to deal with in this country.....

So I have come to the conclusion that Provincially, I will vote for the party that everybody seems to think is going to make a difference, and that has made a huge difference in Cape Town city....Godzilla.

Nationally, I am going to vote for the natural opposition to the ANC, and a party I have come to identify with and relate to in terms of their party manifest......Terror.

Its going to be a very interesting election, and I think once again the Antichrist Nonliberating Corruption Party is going to win, despite hundreds of people's disillusion to the contrary.

At least I have finally found a middle ground between my conscious and my heart.

Should I or Shouldn't I

I am in a bit of a dilemma at work at the moment. I am a sales person for a hotel group, and work my ass off from Monday to Friday to get money into the hotels. I have from the beginning of my career stated that I do not work on the weekends. The weekends are mine to spend with my family and friends and to relax from work.

I was asked by my manger to host a dinner and site inspection of one of our hotels on a Saturday night, as the sales rep responsible for the client, is not in the country and neither is my boss. I told her I am sorry but I am not doing it on a Saturday night. Now there is a bit of an issue. I am being branded as the one they cant depend on, and there will be consequences if I keep on refusing to do it.

Our directors are all ex hotel staff, so they just believe that everybody should be on call or available 24 hours a day, 7 days a week.

Its not a legal issue I have now, its a moral issue. There really is nobody to host this dinner, and my boss told me she would never ask me if they had another plan, but they really have nobody at all to do it. Do I say yes now, and sell my soul, or do I stick to my guns and risk getting a warning.

I don't know what to do. I hate compromising where I feel I am loosing, or I compromise an ideal I believe in so strongly, but then you get people who force you to compromise with the imminent threat of "action" against you.

Spotted in Pretoria

Sometimes I am ashamed to be Afrikaans... This is a porter in a very white afrikaans neighbourhood of Pretoria and it says Afrikaans speaking people don't vote. I can only presume this is some sort of protest against the monkey government. The problem is that these small minded idiots are the ones giving the country away to the monkeys because they are not voting. Can you actually believe it!

Another idiot

The most original personalised number plate... A Porsche boxter987 with a plate that says 'box 987' It must have taken him moths to come up with that...

Candi

She can only sleep when her little bear is in the bed with her. She doesn't tear it apart in 2 minutes like some other dogs I know....

My sisters dog

Its a miniature doberman but she is so over weight that she looks like a miniature pork banger!

Morning!!

This is what I WANT to wake up to again....soon....

Morning!!

This is what I wake up to every morning this week. A sea of pink...

My favourite

I love Acacia trees. Its part of my childhood. I grew up in Johannesburg and used to go hunting with my dad in the Northern Transvaak where they grow rife. Today there were about 20 at the Eskom head office, and it made me very happy. No wonder I bought one as a Bonsai.

My first day in Johannesburg

I forget what people are like in Johnnesburg. This morning I was a little early for my first appointment, so I went to the closest Virgin Active for a coffee and muffin. While I was sitting there, I noticed three guys sitting down, obviously after their morning gym session. They were around late forties and loud. Next all their wives started joining them. Very quickly the group grew to around 10 people. The thing is they were all chatting and this was obviously a ritual, as all the staff knew them and brought them all their "usual". I have never seen so many bangles and earrings and gold rings in my life. That was on the men. The woman came from their aerobics class and had no jewelry on. The men had bangles, gold rings, gold chains and earrings. All men over 40. I had such a big laugh. Joburg straight men from the east rand are sooooo funny.

Flying and Family Day

So here I am once again at the airport, patiently waiting for my flight to board. Its Family Day, a public holiday, but I am flying to Johannesburg on business for the week. I am slightly ticked off as I am a creature of habit, and don't think I should be traveling for work on a holiday. Also my entire day is screwed up. I leave at 13:30, so had to be at the airport at 12:30. Did nothing this morning but get ready and pack. I only land around 15:30 so will only be out around 16:00. An entire day ruined. The only thing good about this whole trip, and I mean really the ONLY thing, is that I get to see my family on Family Day, and I get to see my friends. Well hopefully I get to see them, they haven't yet confirmed if they want to see me on Wednesday....Hint Hint....

So leaving home and my dogs and of course Tristan behind, I head off again. Feeling sick and wanting to vomit, but wanting to be with my family. This is how my days are spent. Constant confusion of emotions.

Easter Rituals

I went to midnight mass last night at St Gorges Catheral, the Anglican one. This morning I woke up at 6:30 to join a coloured evangalistic church, a german church and another kind I could not quite figure out, on top of Signal Hill to great the sunrise with horns blowing and people proclaiming Jesus has risen! I do this for a few reasons. I do this because I like to get exposed to different variations of my religion, I do this to worship God in my own way, but mostly I do this for Hope. I went searching this weekend, in all these places, for Hope. Hope for our country and its people. I have believed for a while now that our nation is a group of 'alternative' seeking, non believing, ego-centric people who don't even know what Easter means, apart from getting easter eggs. What I have found, is that there is a lot of Hope left in this city, in this country. There are so many, young and old, who are not afraid to ring a bell in a church to celebrate that Jesus has risen. There are many, young and old, who are not afraid to scream from Signal Hill and blow on horns to celebrate that Jesus has risen. And that is the Hope I am looking for. The Hope that our nation is not lost in the rest of the world's search for an 'alternative' to one true God!

Spotted...

In the toilet at Kirstenbosch.

Goodbye

At a cold noisy grave we stand, watching as the coffin goes down. A cold day. A sad day. A goodbye day. At a cold noisy grave is the final goodbye to Tannie Kato.

Truely a nice day

I have this program on my laptop, that uses satelight images and gives me the night / day time around the world. It normally includes clouds wherever there are and the past few days have been very "busy" around the world. This morning I switched it on and got greeted by this picture. It truly is a wonderful day all around the world. Not a single cloud in the sky ANYWHERE. God is smiling on the world today.

Death and a funeral

Tomorrow morning I am attending a funeral of an aunt of mine. An aunt who I lived with when I first moved to Cape Town. Someone that I haven't seen in a very long time, due to distance, and change. She has not been the same person for the past few years as I had know before, and me being the person I am, does not like to see people who wont recognise me, and who are so frail and sick. I know it might be selfish of me, but I rather want to remember the original, and not the over copied version.

To top it all off, I haven't been to a family funeral, or a funeral of a loved one for a very long while, and with everything that is happening in my life at the moment, I am not sure I will be able to cope well.

So with my guilt of not spending time with my aunt in her last few years, and the pending sadness in me at the moment, I will go to the funeral and try and be strong.

Wish me luck.

Elections 2009

So this is the problem I am sitting with, as explained in a previous post.

1)Do I vote with my heart?

NO - I have realised that South Africa does not have a true Socialist Party and the closest to this is The Socialist Party of Azania, who wants to further black people based on Socialism....WAYYYY off

2) My head?

Still not convinced. Helen Zille is not really my ideal president, and the party is busy with desperate tactics. Not a sign of strength.

3)Or with the alternative?

They have very strong and identifiable manifests, and is truly the only real alternative to the ANC!!!

4) Then there is the cultural / heritage vote?

A lot has happened to make me lean in this direction.....Maybe its time we took our country back!!!

Time

Father time rides the night

with Death on his back

waiting for the nod

to take the one we love.

Its sad to loose someone

but even worse for someone else

the feeling of wonder

of when the loss is closer.

Time waits for no man,

but also no woman.

Time flies,

but sometimes too fast.

Time runs out for us all. Its the waiting, and the wondering,

of when its gonna catch up to my loved ones that gets me down.

At the Planetarium

Went to the Planetarium today, something I haven't done for many MANY years. It was very cool and saw lots.

Gold leave on the ocean

Strange reflection on the ocean today because of the smoke in front of the sun.

Made me shed a tear

Earth Hour

I think we have tampered with the world's biorhythms by initiating things like earth hour and green energy and stuff. We were all doing fine until all these things came up. Now there is a general trend among people of feeling down and tired and moody. I think its because we are trying to change something that earth has already adapted to....

Well I don't really think that, but there is a general down turn in the human mood. Or at least in my immediate surroundings. People are struggling more, they are more moody, they are more depressed and just negative in general. Me included!!

Maybe its the radiated food we are eating, or maybe its the organic shit fertilizing veggies. Whatever it is, we are a little off centre and we need to get back on the axle as a species, or we will never be able to get back on again.

Ain't it nice to shoot the breeze on a Friday morning......

Its that time again

On the 22 April 2009, South Africans will put on a show once again. A show for the entertainment of the uncorrupted few and the international community. This play will be entirely make believe and will be called....National Elections 2009.

Yes it will be a sham. Although earmarked as the most important election since the 1994 democratic one, it will not be a true reflection of what the people feel and want. For once there is a proper black opposition party in the form of COPE (Congress of the People) who is rumoured to have split the ANC vote in half. That leaves space for other opposition parties to take the country back form the clutches of the corrupt "swart gevaar" (black danger). The problem however arises in our glorious, but dumb rural areas, where promises by the ANC of houses, jobs and money will force the rural majority to vote for the ANC...again.

So where does that place me. Honestly I have no idea.

I want to vote with my heart and vote what I truly believe to be the only way forward for us, but unfortunately my party will never get any seats. So, do I vote for a party just because they are the biggest, or most affluent opposition to the ANC, even if I don't agree with their politics. Would my once vote, casted according to my heart, really matter towards the greater good of the nation. The dilemma is that if everybody said that, the opposition might not get any votes at all.

Politics has always interested me, but I must say, at the moment, I must go with my heart when I vote and I must be true to what I believe intrinsically to be right. That will mean that "Godzilla" does not get my vote. For the first time ever I am torn between voting with my heart and voting with my head.

WHAT OT DO!!!!!