Tiredness

I am extremely tired the past few days. It might be because I am actually working now and I can feel it. It might be because I am just run down and have had this looming cold for over 2 weeks now. It might be because I am very worried about my dog, and about how he has changed. Actually I don't know what is wrong with me, but I am really tired, really edgy and really feeling aggressive and confrontational. I think I need a holiday, I think I need a hug!!!

Have you ever...

Have you ever just had an all of a sudden change of heart and felt like you want to sit in a corner and just cry....Have you ever felt like you want to disappear and come back in a few days time....Have you ever felt like things are getting so difficult that you want to crawl under your bed and never come out again....Have you ever felt like crying for no reason at all. Just cry for hours and hours and hours.....Oh, neither have I then....

Jersey

I feel very warm and cosy today. I feel like I am in a cocoon of love and protection (even after my ranting and raving at home). I feel like there is nothing that can hurt me today or make me upset. I feel like I am a kid again and I am being cradled by loving arms. I feel like the sun is shining on me ALL the time. I feel like I am loved and being loved. I feel so special today. All because of a Jersey I took out of the cupboard this morning.

What did I miss

I feel like I have missed a day or two in my life. I feel like I went to sleep on Sunday night and woke up on Monday morning but its a week later, or a parallel universe. It feels like things happened while I was sleeping and it changed the dynamic of all my relationships with everybody. What the hell happened on Sunday night. So I am trying to piece together the events that lead me to this bizarre intersection (and piece together my car back light), and there are pieces missing so I cant complete the picture. Hopefully this mandala can be wiped out before it is completed.

Mixed Friday

Its Friday and I am supposed to be excited and happy for the weekend, but I have such a mixed feeling in my gut about today. My house is in a mess, and I need to sort it out. I don't get time to go to gym. My dogs are missing me so much and I miss them so much, and every day when I leave for work, I want to cry coz they look so sad. I want to be back in bed where I was last night. I think my energy levels are all screwed up. I feel happy and then sad and then want to cry and then on top of th world, all in one minute. The sun coming out makes me sad, coz I was enjoying the misty weather. I am a mess this morning. I need to just relax and take a deep breath and take everything one step at a time. Phew, that was close....all good.

Skin crawling People

I sometimes surprise even myself when I realise how easy someone can get under my skin and make me want to slap them the minute they say anything. I work with one of these people. For some reason, every time she speaks, I feel like my skin is melting off my body and my face automatically goes into that mouth turned down corner look, as if she just shat on the desk. I am not sure what it is about her, but I sometimes get this feeling with people I like even. Sometimes there is just something they do, or something they say that makes me want to hit the living shits out of them. I hope I am not alone in this, and that there are other people who feel the same way, from time to time.